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Thursday, 04 September 2008
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Finally, this unruffled feeling..
Yes, i haven't been in here for ages. Busy with loads and tons of Common Tests which are continually going on, sucky! But, i think it's been worth it, cus finally, yes, finally, I'm scoring good grades!
Hehe. Well, if you're gonna ask about my well-being, then it certainly is a No-No, sigh
. Yes, you have probably gotten it right - Friends. I wished they could understand me more. Or at the better least, leave me alone. This few weeks... I don't know if it's all brought upon myself, but sigh, what's done is done, isn't it? Okay, i had better not sigh too much, for it'll make me look OLD. haha, anyway, i just read this post by... Um, Lost_In_Reverie, about that Life is beautiful, you and me are beautiful. But i think, even if you thinks you are beautiful, but with a Low-Esteem/ Confidence rate, it's of no use, stepping out into the society and saying you're beautiful just cus you don't even dare to make the first step that everyone in town will laugh their heads off at you? Nevermind, by the way, I'm not saying i'm beautiful cus i know my looks sucks a loooooooooooooooooooot, even though my friends doesn't judge friends according to their looooooks, but, gave me some kind of... Low-Esteem of myself. Sigh, ok, shit, that sigh, Oops. Haha, ok, i'm gone. I'm not sure when i will be back, but End of Year exams are approaching with fast speed, AND I HAVEN'T DONE ANY REVISING NOTES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Shiatsxzxzxzxzxz, I'm so dead meat!bye!
Tuesday, 19 August 2008
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The fear of losing.
Today, the clock ticks, the music continues, the bell rings,
and it's time for school yet again.I was wondering what to write, for the birthday cards of Sam, Peishi, Yiyun and Guowei when i thought of the deeds they did for me:
Sam - Siding with me when i'm the middle man, with Serene, helping me to cry and lives on. Seriously, thinking about those times makes me wna cry for the support they willingly just gave without hesitation.
Peishi - Ytd, when Peishi was late for Dance, i don't think i'll have the mood to go on dancing anymore. Simply to imply, Peishi's there to lighten my mood, everytime during Dance and Guzheng. She's a real pal.
Yiyun - Well, she's my best friend in Guzheng besides Peishi and Derrick. Always being the first to help me when i'm in the middle of a scolding by the same old naggy instructor (oops), she's a really good friend i should say.
Guowei - Well, i don't know what to say. But he's a good person from really very close view and an asshole from far. Ha.I felt so peaceful to have them revolves around my life that now i shivers bcus of the fear of losing in me, especially when dearest brother is leaving for NS. I'll really really miss him, like shit. Home won't be home without him.
: Sam, Peishi, Yiyun, Guowei, Brother.
Sunday, 17 August 2008
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i guess the new light came from the new week.
Hello everybody, guess what my findings for the day were?
It was this extreme cool word: Pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosis Hah, very extreme cool right? I got this from: http://mybeatitude.livejournal.com/!
It's meaning was a lung disease caused by the inhaletion (ok, i don't know how to spell) of Silicon Air. Well, guess that this don't really matters to me, which is a good thang! Cus i won't have to memorise it then! haha!Ok, that's probably all for today.
Saturday, 16 August 2008
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weariness.
Mood: Tired

Anyway, today was "the day", haha. Early in the morning practised until tired alr, get a book for refreshment
And online for awhile. Gee, cried cus was too scared. Really really scare, mind you! Anyway, thanks Sam and Derrick for cheering me!
Whatever, Celia & Yokeleng came and practised practised practised! Went to schl but gate opened with Mrs Ngoh's key
Make up and all and ate a bun by Mrs Ngoh, hehe, thanks!
On the bus at first very noisy, hehe, lol! Then Xiner and i played Messaging, funny bodoh! This was what we chatted about:
Me: Hello, i love you. I'm your admirer <3
Xiner: Ohhh i love you too <3
Me: Really uh? Oops, sorry, wrong number. Very very sorry.
Xiner: Go to hell
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH, then the both of us burst out laughing, especially me, hahahahahahah! Then, messaged Hanlin kor, cus today's "the day the result" Walau, he don't want tell me. Judah Doudou kor called me and told me the results <3



, they won! 2nd prize! Woo, i'm so happy ogay, but that stupid Doudou, don't wna me to tell
Pfft, hahahha, so cool right. Hanlin kor owes me now a Swensen meal and Doudou kor, a present!
Cool? Envious? HEHE.So yeah, reached our destination, did the preparatory works and all, and settled down. Had a good laughter there
Dinner was pretty fun, stupid Xiner kept doing NC16 moves, haha! Funny siah she, lol! Somemore Suaneng seating beside me only, 
Performance was rather
, cus the guests were pretty involved with their food to even look up, which is a good thang!
Had many mistakes though, probably the worst performance ever!
HEHE, but nehmind, it was fun, we all buirst out laughing when the curtains were closed, we received a big big big token ok!
hoho, had a group photo and schl we went!In the bus, you could see flashlights everywhere, thanks to the fact that everyone was whipping out their handphones and shooting every candid and random and cute and shy and pretty and handsome faces down, haha
Had fun with allllllllll of them ok! 
Reach schl and they started the erhem thing. Lol, DBY was a lil lame to join in too
So yeah, vomited out of too much of running,laughers,coughing,etc.,etc. 
Suaneng, Xiner, Joleen, Yiyun and Waishiong brought me to my voiddeck!

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inevitable.
i don't thinks so.
i'm crying now for all you know bcus of the tension in me for later's performance. It's gonna be tough and i know that and i'm prepared for everything but i just can't stop those tears from falling, and those thinkings that i'm such a bum for letting everyone down so much. if time could go back, i would stop it from moving and stucking forever at the night of the 10th Anniversary's concert for it's the best day ever. now time ate into my memories that some of those really cherished ones are fading.
Fatigue.



